Lost?

It’s one of those days when you look around you and see your friends busy in something or the other and you look at yourself and think, “What exactly am I doing with my life?”

I went out for lunch with some of my close college friends today and after roaming around the same area for an hour looking for a “new” place to hang out, we ended up eating at a Subway joint (at least we didn’t end up at McDonald’s like always). We were discussing how our lives have changed so much since college started. In school, talking to a cute guy or successfully answering the teacher’s question brought immense satisfaction to our minds. Here, now, out in the world, we feel useless. Everyone seems to be pursuing a worthwhile goal and we have no clue as to what we’re doing.

Do we want to accomplish something to prove to others that we’re not far behind? Look busy just for the sake of it? No, not really. It’s actually our own mental ego that we want to satisfy. We want to go home and sleep with a smug smile on our lips which says “I learnt a new thing today”.

We realised it’s a huge world. HUGE. There’s SO much to do! But here we sit, in front of the TV, cribbing about how life is so boring and unimaginative. We decided we were the only ones who could put an end to this. Get off our butts and actually DO something. Open our minds, explore ourselves, find out what we like and what we don’t, develop our thinking before we take up the challenges offered by the world.

We ended up borrowing books and DVDs of varied genres from the library, to “broaden our horizons”. Because, right now, we’re not really sure what our place in the world is. And we don’t need to. That will take the fun out of FINDING it. We motivated each other to not be a frog of the well, content with the small world we build around us. There’s a lot to do actually that 24 hours a day is so little time. We just need to keep our curiosity alive. Sure, presently, we might not be where we belong, because truthfully, we’re not sure of where we belong. But that’s ok. We can search. Sure, sitting at Subway talking about all the things we COULD do isn’t such a big deal. But the spark ignited. It’s a start.